I tried to merge these two images together, but that looked awful. I hope i was a better at being a husband than i am i am with using Photoshop.
We all miss you so much. Sam is going crazy. He is meowing all the time. “I’m freaking here, where are you?”
Saar is suffering in silence, she is sitting in the attic most of the time. I wish i had your talent of communicating with those two. I love them, but i am no Dr. Doolittle. My communication skills with cats is painfully lacking right now.
Your mom and dad are devastated and the same goes for your brother and sister. But i think the funeral did them as much good as it did for me. If you would have been there (and i like to think you have) you would have been so proud. Your departure from this world assembled a great number of very fine people and many of them wanted tell their story about what you have meant to them. It did stretch the ceremony twice as long as planned and i am really happy that that never was a problem. And i just know that you would have loved the music. I have many flaws, but a bad taste in music is not one of them.
Thank you for all the love and inspiration you have been giving me during 27 fantastic years. Thank you for being the woman who blew my mind in every way imaginable. Thank you for the fact that i don’t have to think for a second when someone asks me who was the love of my life.
One more thing. If this whole reincarnation theory is true and you are summoned again to start another life in this world, please tell the celestial authorities that they can screw themselves. This world does need you, but it does not deserve you.
And don’t worry about me. It hurts really bad to be kicked out of paradise, but at least i know what it looks like.
Have fun out there darling.
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Shit! Where’s the little smilie thing with the big blue teardrops when I need it?!
Seriously, I wish I was at least a quarter bit as strong as you are man.
I had struggled with the thought of leaving a comment here after seeing this post. My first and immediate thoughts were of my own wife and how I would ever come to grips if this happened to me. I couldn’t come up with the words, and the courage to type them here, and hit send. Instead, I chose to message Dolf privately.
After reading Jeff’s comment it really got me thinking how much I totally agree with him!! It’s like the light switch flipped on!! I too wish I were as strong as Dolf! I’m not sure I could ever make a similar post about my wife, Michelle. As a matter of fact, the more I thought about it, I was sure I could never write that post. I would probably abandon posting and blogging, period. I had a really hard time coming to grips with, and then writing about, her cancer scare four years ago.
Thanks, Dolf, for your courage in posting this and bringing us closer to you and introducing Conny to those of us who didn’t know her. Thanks too, Jeff, for making the light finally click on and helping me to come up with words I could post.
Godspeed Conny
To be honest, i never would have believed that i would write something like this and put it on the internet. But the big lesson i learned from all this is how important your family, friends, colleagues and even your neighbourhood are. I would not have gotten through this with my sanity intact without all the love and support i they have been giving me.
So instead of bottling it up, i talk about it, write about it and post about it on my blog. Simply because i felt the need to do it. Bottling this would only be destructive for me.
But there is no good or bad way of doing this. Everyone should simply do what they are most comfortable with. But believe me that you can’t predict how you will behave when the time comes. Stuff like this changes a person fundamentally.
And again, thank you both for all your support. You guys are the best!